I am less than 24 hours away from my 20th class reunion and I am nervous. A couple days ago I had a bit of a panic attack and vlogged it;).
I don’t like who I was in high school (or any of my “teens”) and I am still embarrassed about it. I didn’t like myself then either and so that deeply had an effect on my attitude. I was often not a nice person and was a little over cocky/aggressive. But that was long ago and I am a different person now.
In the panic: NerdDad was told me if I wasn’t excited/happy then not to go but I kind of feel like I have to face this. My best friend weighed in and she was hilarious. She said I couldn’t just not go and no one would think anything of it at this point. She said since I “made it” in a small way that it could be taken as a snub if I didn’t go…. Yeah, she is 1)a little crazy and 2)has a really low bar of any form of making it;). But I lover her anyway;).
So I got through that but the whole “I am not going to look good enough” freak out has been in the back of my mind for the last month;). But it hit me today…. The dress I am wearing was complemented by Jeannie Mai and the pictures have been complemented widely;). So I guess I should quit being a child about this!
I think it goes back to I need to be who I am now and not try to hard (as I still have a habit to do with former high school peeps). I may not have been likeable as a teen but people seem to find me pleasant enough now;).
I am good enough, smart enough and darn it, people like me! (Hey, Jack Handey was onto something;)
I will report back next week to let you know how it all goes!!!